Hostility in My Life

I don't know what it is, but wherever I go (well not everywhere), there is something or someone hostile to me. I feel like I have no respect, no friendships, just this mad attitude. It seems to exist no matter how nice I am. I try to do the write things, always choosing right (almost always), but I always get left in the dark. Since this is a blog about creativity, I've written a poem to help me get through this. It's called Darkness.


Darkness

The flow of my life
the calm, easy ride
I take to receive
the love of the earth
has suddenly come to
a halt. I've been meditating
on rebuilding positivity
and all good,
however, there is a
wall pushing me back
and not letting me go
forward. Hostility may
be his name. Crazed
energy is blocking
all of my love. I
stop and try to work
it through. My head
is spinning. I feel like
a crumb left out for
the birds, wings clipped,
mirrors smashed

Wheres the party,
the dance, the elegant
dinner?

I feel like I'm
left in the dark.

The Season of Winter

January 24, 2015

Since it's Saturday and it's snowy today, I thought this haiku poem might amuse some people. It's a 5-7-5 format.

silent snow falling
black streets filled with white dusting
life in the winter

Getting Off to a Healthy Start

January 15, 2015

I took a test for what nutritional type I am, and it came out to be the protein type. This has been told to me on and off during my life. But it's important to eat write to stay lucid and at a healthy weight, so I am going to try this high protein diet, low carbohydrate diet. I really feel lethargic, and not up to doing the writing and all the things I do to help myself feel better. And if I can't do them, how can they possibly help. Writing is good, the best for helping with my negative emotions, but I can't shake this tired/anxous syndrome. It's under control, but there are so many days, that I just don't feel like doing anything. That is not good for me. I need to write and do my artwork, and I need to have more energy. I'm driving now, but still don't like going out in the cold weather. But I will. I have got to make up my mind and do it. And, guess what? I have to follow through. I'm working on a number of stories, that I'd like to finish, but haven't had the energy or motivation to. But, now I will.

Dealing with Negativity

January 1, 2015


2015, wow! Well, one thing's for sure, I certainly learned a lot in the past year, and I expect to achieve much  more in the coming year. I'm taking a psychology course, and it's all about negative people pressing your buttons. They try to draw you into their negativity, because they're not feeling good, so they bother you. So, if you write, they don't like that you have this resource, so they start criticizing and arguing with you and try to upset you. Writer's Digest calls them trolls. Some people call them "cyber-bullies." Whatever, you call them, try to stay objective and not invest any emotion in them. When I write, I like to write through issues and things going on in my mind like depression or loneliness. In my book, Over the Golden Horizon, I write through so much pain and hurt. But, when I read all that today, guess what! All of that negativity and hurt is healed. It really works. In the creative writing course I'm taking, the class responds to our writing with encouragement and inspiration. That's what it's all about! So don't suffer. Create! And don't worry about all those negative people bother you.