A Poem for Christmas Eve

December 24, 2014

Yesterday's negativity left me feeling tremors this morning. So I am going to counteract it with this positive, spiritual poem for everyone tonight on Christmas Eve.


Bright Night

The sunlight slowly
immerses
After an endless dark night,
Energizing me to take one
Step forward,
Giving me a spark of hope,
A small sparkling insight
Emerging as the great light
Of the earth...
Taking steps on
His radiant walkway,
Brilliant light helps and
Guides me
To know my love
And his love through
The darkness...
The brilliant life and pathway
Are at once with us,
Knowing only the present
Of his spirit,
Love and love
Following...
Grows into our
Purpose,
Raises us up...

Writing Through My Emotions

December 19, 2014

Well, it's the holidays and amidst the problems, the  racial tensions, poverty,  and environmental issues, among others, we're celebrating the holidays. This, as we all know, can be a joyous time you spend with your families, or can be a sad, lonely experience. Right now, I'm a caregiver, and stay home quite a bit. Also, I'm without a car in an area with limited public transportation. But, as the serenity prayer says, "Change the things you can, " I'm taking brush up driving lessons, and buying a car in the spring. Then, I'll be able to function more normally. Emotionally, I have been up and down. My moods are constantly changing. My mother is in the moderate to severe stage of Alzheimer's, and it's really hard to experience the change in my live with my mother this way. She can't take care of herself, she is totally dependent on my sister and me. I hate to see her like this. It's sad, as I was always close to my mother and we had a really good relationship. My sister and I have been going through some stressful things too. We have differences of opinion and, though we try hard, our relationship is strained. I haven't had a date, since I lost my husband seven years ago. I try, but I'm not happy-go-lucky, it's hard to find a real relationship.

So, how do I handle all this? I write, or do crafts, or play music. I do yoga, meditation and prayer. And believe me, it works. It gets me through. When I'm depressed about something, or just "don't feel right" I create. This is what makes me happy. I write poetry on the web, have been in magazines and journals and have eight books out, four poetry and four uplifting children's books. I take psychology courses, and I've taken courses in writing therapy. Writing (all art) releases all the negativity and brings me to a positive place. Without it, I couldn't handle all this tragedy.

Anyway, we put up a tree and a real pine wreath, and we're going through the holidays together. I put up the tree, my sister put the angel on top, which was no easy task. And by the spring, I'll be driving.

So good wishes for all in the coming year.